For many of us of a certain age, that sentence -- the opening line of Hunter Thompsons Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas -- reverberates like a great gong, tapping slightly addled memories of another life, 30 years gone, another universe. The news of his suicide this week, brought it all back.
It was a time when the weekly arrival of Rolling Stone meant Do not disturb for the next three hours. Nothing published today compares in terms of pop culture impact to RS in its prime. It was the bible of of the counter-culture, an absolute must-read. We devoured Lester Bangs and Ralph Gleason because what they wrote about the new Neil Young album meant something, because Bob Dylans lyrics had mythic importance, because the music, like the world, was ours.
And when the magazine published one of Thompsons insane reports, accompanied the equally bizarre illustrations of Ralph Steadman, well, hipness could get no hipper. It was like we were all in on the same stony joke -- all of us, reader, writer, artist, publisher.
Interview Nixon? No problem. Pass me that joint, first.
I lived in San Francisco then, and like so many other aspiring gonzo writers there and elsewhere, I fell under Thompsons spell. Thankfully, very little of what I wrote in those days remains. The truth is, no one else could write like Thompson because no one else who imbibed illegal substances the way Thompson did could sit up at a typewriter long enough to put a sentence to paper. He didnt just write gonzo, he lived gonzo.
In the mid-1980s, it was my strange fortune to encounter Thompson by phone on a number of occasions. Initially, I was involved in co-writing a book in which Thompson was profiled. Our conversations were brief and mostly about fact-checking. A year or so later, however, I was assigned to track Thompson down for a Saturday Review magazine cover photo. Cover of Saturday Review? Sure, Id kill for that, he said. And I believed him. But then he dodged my follow-up calls for weeks.
Finally, someone in his entourage called to say he would cooperate and that he was holed up at the Drake Hotel in New York under an assumed name. The name? The agent wasnt sure. That was our problem. The photographer, being a resourceful sort, called the front desk and asked for Mr. Raoul Duke, Thompsons Doonesberry alter ego. Contact! Thompson told the photographer that his office hours were from 2:00 to 4:00 -- a.m! -- and not to come back until then.
Using a fifth of Wild Turkey and the negotiating skills of a Grisham hero, the photographer finally got Thompson to pose for a startlingly closeup cover shot. Thompson hated the picture, and after the article came out he was quoted as saying he couldnt say the word Saturday anymore without retching. We never had occasion to speak again.
In recent years, when I saw Thompson in photos or when I read his columns, it seemed to me hed become something of a parody of himself. Running around stoned out of your mind is edgy stuff at 30; it loses its charm at 67. It also tends to lead to acts of anguished desperation, like shooting yourself and leaving your wife and son to find your shattered body. It was inevitable, I suppose, but sad, nonetheless. The man was a brilliant writer. He even wrote his own epitaph:
... No explanation, no mix of words or music or memories can touch that sense of knowing that you were there and alive in that corner of time and the world. Whatever it meant. ... There was a fantastic universal sense that whatever we were doing was right, that we were winning. And that, I think, was the handle -- that sense of inevitable victory over the forces of Old and Evil. Not in any mean or military sense; we didn't need that. Our energy would simply prevail. There was no point in fighting -- on our side or theirs. We had all the momentum; we were riding the crest of a high and beautiful wave. ...
(Bruce van Wyngarden is editor of the Flyer.)